Sex vs. Masturbation

I always thought that sex completely occupies the heads of the people from the east because of the social/religious restrictions. Well, I guess that had nothing to do with any restrictions, as having lived in a different culture where getting sex is as easy sometimes as getting a drink I could see that it still occupies and drives the behavior of people, just in a different way. It's not the restrictions that empower and magnify it…

It's all about the instinct.

I always said that having sex is just like drinking sea water when we are thirsty, it just gets us more thirsty and in need to more water. Now, we have the instinct…and god gave us hands…so why the hassle about sex? If we wanna go through the headache, problems, and concerns regarding sexual intercourse; we will definitely stop thinking about sex….for few minutes at least, before we shift back to our horny nature as males…

I'm writing a list to compare between sex and masturbation ….notable that by sex I mean meaningless sex, not with the loved one…just random sex with a sex partner, one night stands, casual sex or "friend with benefit"….

Economic aspects:

• Unlike sex, you don't have to invite yourself over dinner or even to the movies when you want to pleasure yourself.
• When you pleasure yourself, you don't need to buy contraceptive materials including emergency pills in case she forgets hers and things get out of hand….

Physical aspects:

• A man needs an average of 2 minutes or 3 top to climax while a woman needs a minimum average of 10 to 15 minutes to climax (if she ever will)... So basically, when sex, you have to spend an extra 12 minutes of physical action just to return the favor for a pleasure that you only need 2 minutes to reach when you are alone.
• You don't need foreplay if you are doing your homework alone, foreplay helps women orgasm. We don't need it, we are easy to satisfy!
• When you are alone, you can go do whatever you were doing the moment you finish, you don't have to lie down next to anybody, cuddle, or snuggle or just stay there….women are so demanding.
• When you are working on your own, it's ok to fantasize that it's Nicole Kidman that you are with, while that is really not ok when you actually have someone with you.
• When masturbating, you don't even have to be in shape, worry about your physique or pay a gym membership to workout (should go to the economic aspects as well)…cuz the only one who is seeing you naked…is YOU!
• With masturbation, no worries about STDs. You won't catch anything that you don't already have

After all what I have listed and plenty more, do you still think that sex is driving you crazy? Wake up buddy! If you are not in a loving relationship….don't over-rate sex...and you might wanna consider using the power of your hands.

Why I'm writing this post…I have no fucking idea….I just watched a movie called Shortbus and it triggered me....among other things!

Lemon and Lemonade

I have just moved into a new apartment where I live all by myself…no strangers called roommates…no cheap landlord who wants to save money…. I'm, by all means, enjoying living alone for the first time in Canada!

I just got back to school after the spring break; I have loads of school work and projects, I'm gonna have pretty hectic time ahead of me….I should work hard and get things done so I feel better about myself…

I'm back on the dating world as well…. Nothing serious…just dating…when I first came to Canada, I dated few girls, most of them were International students…but now, I'm just dating Canadians. It's part of experiencing the Canadian style of life… I'm sure being in the Potato land is not giving me the fullest chance of experiencing it…but I'm doing what I can do that suits my picky nature and busy schedule…

I love my new place… it has a bedroom and a spacious living room, a small kitchen that has an opening to this living room. I only have the stuff that goes in a bedroom…and I don't have much money to spend…so I did some cheap shopping, got some cushions and an indoor chaise-longue and a small coffee table…they all went together perfectly and created a cozy semi-oriental setting… I got lots of candles…so now as I write… I'm laying on the chaise-longue…a cup of tea …and my favorite cigar are next to me…lights off…all candles are lit up… Naseer Shamma Oud music is playing… I'm having a good relaxing time….

I'm still waiting for the summer courses schedule so that I can know exactly when I will be getting my BBA and leaving this place for good….then I will have to start chasing after my old dream…the MBA...I have few MBA schools in mind in Toronto and Montreal…. But I also wanna apply to some fancy MBA schools in the US…not that I can make it as my GPA is not that impressive thanks to my transferred courses from Damascus University…nor that I can afford it…but still, I'm applying…

Once I have my MBA started…I could say that I'm on the right track for my career…or at least I could say that things are going as planned….

Nothing new has happened to cheer me up….all the same..I have enough worries and concerns that can burry me alive….I'm just trying to look at the bright side of the tunnel…A great person used to tell me "when life gives you lemon, make lemonade".

A year later....

Like today…a year ago…I was setting my foot in this place….it was new to me…I was lost, didn't know where to go, what to do, who to talk to… I felt I didn't I belong….

A year later, I now longer don't know where to go or who to talk to, I know everything around you, I know where to go and what to do, but I'm still lost…I still feel that I don't belong, never will!

When I was lost year, I was disoriented as I had just arrived to a new country! But my feeling of being lost this year is different than that feeling. I feel I'm lost inside, in my head and my spirit….

I came chasing an old dream….and maybe escaping reality that I had created by my misjudgments….

Earlier this week, I got some blows to some plans I have been working on. Had things work out; I would have a great year on many levels, school, and career, financial and personal. All gone now…!

I was on the phone with mom today, her voice sounded distant, or maybe I was distant….the conversation went as usual, her expressing her hopes and worries, me on the other hand, comforting her that I'm ok and that everything is perfectly alright. I wanted to tell her that I don't feel alright, I wanted to tell her that I hate my life, but the only words that came out were: I'm fine, mom!

Here I'm, virtually, complaining once again with the absence of somebody to talk to, who would understand and relate to me! I feel like I have lost my social skills. I have lost the warmth in me. I feel like I'm lost….well, I am!